Friends With Benefits? (my real story)

Hey guyz!😊 im back with another story. Its been a long time since last time that i post on my blog hehe. And this time i wanna post my real story and hope you enjoy.😊


I want to tell you a little. I have a friend. he's a friend of my ex-boyfriend. we know each other but not too much. about a week ago, he found me on instagram. we often talked about many things. he says he's single. I also. at that time, I didn't know the direction of the conversation, he said he wanted FWB with me. I don't understand the FWB is and he explained it. FWB is friends with benefits. So this conversation about sexualising. a friend but do like lovers. you know what i mean...

I tell him that I can't do this. moreover you. a friend of my ex-boyfriend. I tell him that I would only do that with a boyfriend. probably could have if we let this be a secret. I tell him that I still can't. he begged me. only once. once is a bullshit right?

And the most important part that I told him that if I want to do FWB with him, I would do with a sincere heart. and when it happens, I'm afraid if I fall in love with him. because we will do what it is supposed lovers do. whereas we are only friend. he just told me that this is for fun, not about feelings. yes of course will be a pleasure for you, for me. but I am a woman who uses feelings to do so. he will never understand. and if one day, it will happen when we do FWB and he got a new girlfriend?!?!?! I don't want to imagine the destruction of my heart. Imagine when you are just friends and he wants what lovers do but he didn't want to make a relationship. Unfortunately, he will never understand. I repeatedly told him that I couldn't. after as hundreds of times to say no, he finally let go and understand. I could see he was a little bit upset and angry because he said that I'm difficult. and I've tried hard to convince what makes me not want to do. and after that, I felt that he just wants sexualising while she remains single. what a bastard. and the day after that, I had a strange feeling in myself. or when we are texting each other. he always considered myself who nice and enjoy, maybe I was not anymore. but he still text me. I just hope all is back. Be friend as usual.